Defeat Just Hanging Around

I’ve been downhearted, 
There’s something in me that feels defeated. 


I’ve been sitting behind waterfalls, 
Covering myself in movement, 
All the while standing still
With revenge in my blueprint, 
I’ve been crawling on my feet, 
Keeping pace with half steps, 
Slurring out simple melodies 
Like an owner whistling to its pet, 
I’ve eaten shots at my pride, 
Ingesting them with chipped teeth, 
Chewed my tongue so long 
Just to swallow what I bleed. 


I’ve been downhearted, 
There’s something in me that feels defeated. 


There’s always someone waiting around 
Just to steal my own glory, 
Making my shortcomings their strengths
Using manipulated stories, 
There’s always something watching me 
Through the utmost naked eye, 
You can fool yourself many times 
but your conscience never lies, 
There’s usually something nagging me,
Holding my instinct down, 
It may be keeping me from a fall, 
But it’s leaving me underground. 


I’ve been downhearted, 
There’s something in me that feels defeated. 


I’ve learned to be righteous in my mystery,
Giving only what needs to be seen, 
To keep from shooting flies 
With a gun that’s too heavy. 


I’ve been downhearted, 
But I have yet to be defeated.